i was once quite lovely, now i'm something else (the_hippy_chick) wrote,
i was once quite lovely, now i'm something else
the_hippy_chick

hello


hello


hello


i've been thinking about coming back?

is anyone there?

is it safe?

i have missed you...


please tell me what major events i have missed in your lives...

i have been a busy busy girl, leading the kind of life i only dreamed of two years ago...hell, a year ago...

and they're all my dreams...and they're coming true...and its all my doing...well, me and God...

i understand people have a problem...issue...confusion...with my being a Christian...

i am still jen...just a more loving, forgiving, peaceful jen...happy, serene, centered, fulfilled

is that so bad? and, no, i am not judging you...and no, MOM, i am not voting republican...

but i have found this serenity for a reason...and it does not make me perfect...and i do tons of shitty things...but i pray every day for strength and forgiveness and guidance...and now i know where to direct these prayers...and please do not forget, i did not make these changes solely alone...i asked - no DARED - God to come into my heart and change it...change my life...and within six months i had an awesome boyfriend, a great job, and i'd quit drinking...and the biggest change was in my heart...the one thing i'd thought impossible...

tell me the difference, and tell me i'm weak for my 'crutch'...

if i want to follow a good example - and my life wasn't going so great, if you recall - then i got what i wished for...and more...

my friends still love me...so does my boy...i work out everyday, and i'm getting skinnier (right, nico?)...i work my ass off at a job where i am challenged and needed...i haven't read lj in months, and i hope that you will fill me in through comments, i would love to come back into your lives if you will have me, and be caught up, i miss this more than you know...i left out of fear and pain, and i'm back because i loved this more than that...

whether a myth or a lie or the truth or whatever, there are worse people to emulate than jesus...please don't judge me for that, whatever your prejudices...i know i had my own disdain for christians...

love,
jen
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